Ahhhhh, I just want to happy-rant and I know how annoying that is so I’m just going to do it quietly!
I think I just enjoy punishing myself for literally no reason whatsoever. It’s just become a thing I do now. Have I tormented myself with enough non-jesting self deprecating thoughts today yet? Best meet the daily quota.
How can anyone even like me when I loathe myself so thoroughly. Like wow, am I a terrible person. I can’t even accept other people’s help, but I force my help upon others. It’s so ridiculously selfish. I just want to punch myself in the face.
In many ways I miss how things used to be, and in many I don’t. But right now I’m mostly just sad that I suck at everything and I don’t know why I bother to try any more.
Kind of weird how much life can change in a month. Even if you’re not entirely sure how it’s changed or how that change even happened.
That is officially one of my favorite hours of my life. Thank you life for being a pal.
the good thing about me is that you can not talk to me for 3 weeks and then talk to me and I’ll be fine and still care about you the same way I did before
the bad thing is that I do that to people and they don’t understand that sometimes I just don’t feel like interacting with people.